This bitch bitchin'

There are an awful lot of discussions on the internet which focus on the different types of power exchange dynamics. It would appear, that the latest/ newest/ considered baddest/ deepest/ most intense/ most whatever! at any time is the one that people want to be in.

Now whether they are actually in that type of relationship or not seems almost irrelevant to some. We have slaves without Masters/ Mistresses/ Owners/ who are twoo-er slaves that anyone else, because they have slave hearts. I would love to see a slave heart, but only once it has been detached from the body (joke - well sort of).  We also have Masters / Dominants and Owners who are full of 'Absolute Truths' though they actually have no-one to dominate, well except the forums they inflict their 'Truths' on. 

Some of these people are really good at talking the talk, but there seems to be great difficulty in walking the walk. Well, quite a few seem to have walked a walk but actually have ended up repeatedly falling over, I wonder why?

There are 'Great Truths' expounded - The Way to do this, The Way to do that and of course how not to do this and how not to do that. I am often left in total awe of these people, but not for the reasons they would like me to be. It's the 'Truths' that I object to. Be whoever you are doing whatever you do, but please save the 'Great Truths'

We get Maslow, Herzberg, Meyers Briggs et al and of course an enormous amount of other managerial type theory and of course military principles and practices. Now, I like to have an open mind and I enjoy all of the theoretical discussions and the great diversity of views and opinions....What I do not like are the exponents of ' truths' and ' that's not the way  you should be doing ...' Most of the time this comes from not only people with limited experience, no experience or repeated bad practice over many years which has led to a string of failed relationships.

I may be biased, but I like my way, it is simple (like me) also straight forward and guess what...it is actually honest. My way is this...I know some things, I think I know other things but sometimes I am mistaken, there are a lot of things I do not know. I am willing to learn and evolve and keen to do so. It works for me.

So, what do I think O/p is about;

Well, the O/p group definition lays out the basics , but of course the way it operates is different for many people, and that is not only cool, but it is a positive thing, diversity is great and in my humble opinion there is no 'one true way'.

But what do I think O/p is about ? Well, here is my short version -

• Once I gave up my rights, I gave up my rights to everything.

• Once I said ' I am your property' it meant, 'I am yours for however long you want me'.

• You can do whatever you want to me physically and psychologically (but of course there will be implications).

• It is about me trying to be whatever it is my owner wants me to be, not just when I want to, but always.

• It means my life is not my own any more, from that moment on it meant my life belonged to my owner and my one and only priority was to serve her in whatever way she wants.

• My needs/ wants are not important, I may crave them, but it is not up to me if they are met or not and if they are not then I will try my best to just get on with things.

• I know I will fail / get it wrong / have a strop / sulk / act like a cunt sometimes and when I do, I expect to be put in line, punished, trained, developed, encouraged or whatever else can be done to make me a good slave.

• It means, I will not be a priority, either sometimes or at all.

• In short, it means.....I will do as I am fucking well told and if I don't...well my owner will decide the next move.

Birthday

Fifty five years old today, OMG I am fucking ancient. I am now one of those old gits I used to take the piss out of when I was a youngster, Aaarrg,. I am a wrinkly.

MT got me a really nice card, it has two little pigs on. To the untrained eye, this may seem cute, but it has a much more sinister meaning and is a little reminder of my status and a particular little taunt MT likes to use. She just doesn't miss a trick Respect.

Along with some other nice prezzies, MT also got me a really great jacket, perhaps no coincidence it is a 'Dissident' one - how apt. Much to MT's disgust, I had arranged work today and had quite a busy day. But tonight this spoilt little slave is having a nice meal cooked by MT and there shall be wine (red wine which is all for me)..

I do believe however, that there will be no chicken bones available, as I am having duck. I wonder if duck bones are as good as chicken bones to throw at owners?

As a point of fact, MT did only ban me from ever throwing chicken bones at her, there was no mention of duck bones, I  wonder if I should chance it ? I love being a pedant, I do it so well. Lucky for her I am not eating beef, cow bones would be awesome to throw. Ok, end of 'bratting', well its been a few days now since I was last dealt with. It's MT's fault, she has conditioned me to accept my place.

MT is not very well today (hence it is easier to brat), but on a serious note, I hate seeing her like this. She tries so hard to pretend she is ok when she very clearly she isn't. She is making a big effort today as it is my birthday which is really sweet. But if I could have one wish granted it would be that she could be well.

Question to ponder; Now that I am Very Old, can I make those posts on internet groups where males (particularly dominant ones) say 'I am older and I am very, very wise and this......(insert personal opinion on any subject)  is THE TRUTH!'?  I must run that past MT. I can think of one such place where that might be fun. Oh but I am forgetting myself...I am but a mere slave, and a male slave at that. What do I know?

One of my customers was rushed into hospital last night with his third bout of pneumonia, he also has severe emphysema. According to his daughter, he is unlikely to make a recovery. Just four months ago he was seemingly ok, watching people decline like this and then expire is so sad. During my Fire Service career I saw so many people depart this life and others who incurred such terrible injuries that it meant their lives, and those around them, would be changed forever. Sometimes, being surrounded by so much death and misery really depresses me. Sometimes I feel quite sad that I witnessed some of the things I have seen, sometimes I wish I could have those memories erased, just like in the film 'Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind'. But then, when I really think about it, these things have all helped to shape me to become the person I now am.