Saturday

Today MT gave me a firm slap across the face whilst we were standing in the kitchen, ah bless, the first signs she is feeling a bit better. The end of my' holiday' seems perhaps in sight. Oh well, it made a change to not have pain for a while.

I had to work today, which was crap, but I have tomorrow off, hopefully I will be allowed to watch Arsenal in the cup final and the highlights of World Superbikes. It is amazing how television programmes can improve a slaves mood/ behaviour. Bad behaviour leads to the removal of TV privileges and other things, so if I was a betting person, I would say there is a pretty good chance I will be suffering from lots of good behaviour in the next 24 hours.

It has been an interesting week, some dickhead tried to run me over whilst I was waiting to cross the road. I was standing behind a stationary vehicle at the time. He then made his second mistake, he started to swear and remonstrate at me. Fortunately for him, I was in one of my more sedate moods and just gave him a tirade of abuse. He even did that thing where they pretend they are going to leap out of the vehicle to attack...but actually stay inside as if some invisible force is stopping them from getting out. I informed him that if he wished to get out there was actually no-one stopping him, he declined my kind invitation.How strange, perhaps it was something I had said. Strangely, it is times such as this that I find being owned difficult. One of my standing instructions is that I am not permitted to hit anyone unless under designated guidelines, or in self defence.

So, at times of say 'being slightly heated'  this is truly difficult. One slave being incarcerated would be considered disobedience, how would I provide service to MT ? Would the prison service recognise her owner's  rights ? Possibly not, but then again, it is MT.

Sadly, I learned today that one of my customers passed away last night. It was doubly sad as he was to be re-united with his wife today in a double room in a care home. They had been separated for about three weeks due to his hospitalisation and had been missing each other intensely. The family had hoped to re-unite them to give them one last time together. Life can be so cruel sometimes, another 24 hours was all they needed.

Next week is an expensive one, MT has her birthday on Wednesday and the little one's is on Friday so the bank account will be looking sad by the end of the week. I still haven't got a prezzie for MT and I still do not know what to even get her. Plus, I do not have much time to get one, at least she has me ha ha, even more reason to get her something nice.

Birthday

Fifty five years old today, OMG I am fucking ancient. I am now one of those old gits I used to take the piss out of when I was a youngster, Aaarrg,. I am a wrinkly.

MT got me a really nice card, it has two little pigs on. To the untrained eye, this may seem cute, but it has a much more sinister meaning and is a little reminder of my status and a particular little taunt MT likes to use. She just doesn't miss a trick Respect.

Along with some other nice prezzies, MT also got me a really great jacket, perhaps no coincidence it is a 'Dissident' one - how apt. Much to MT's disgust, I had arranged work today and had quite a busy day. But tonight this spoilt little slave is having a nice meal cooked by MT and there shall be wine (red wine which is all for me)..

I do believe however, that there will be no chicken bones available, as I am having duck. I wonder if duck bones are as good as chicken bones to throw at owners?

As a point of fact, MT did only ban me from ever throwing chicken bones at her, there was no mention of duck bones, I  wonder if I should chance it ? I love being a pedant, I do it so well. Lucky for her I am not eating beef, cow bones would be awesome to throw. Ok, end of 'bratting', well its been a few days now since I was last dealt with. It's MT's fault, she has conditioned me to accept my place.

MT is not very well today (hence it is easier to brat), but on a serious note, I hate seeing her like this. She tries so hard to pretend she is ok when she very clearly she isn't. She is making a big effort today as it is my birthday which is really sweet. But if I could have one wish granted it would be that she could be well.

Question to ponder; Now that I am Very Old, can I make those posts on internet groups where males (particularly dominant ones) say 'I am older and I am very, very wise and this......(insert personal opinion on any subject)  is THE TRUTH!'?  I must run that past MT. I can think of one such place where that might be fun. Oh but I am forgetting myself...I am but a mere slave, and a male slave at that. What do I know?

One of my customers was rushed into hospital last night with his third bout of pneumonia, he also has severe emphysema. According to his daughter, he is unlikely to make a recovery. Just four months ago he was seemingly ok, watching people decline like this and then expire is so sad. During my Fire Service career I saw so many people depart this life and others who incurred such terrible injuries that it meant their lives, and those around them, would be changed forever. Sometimes, being surrounded by so much death and misery really depresses me. Sometimes I feel quite sad that I witnessed some of the things I have seen, sometimes I wish I could have those memories erased, just like in the film 'Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind'. But then, when I really think about it, these things have all helped to shape me to become the person I now am.