The much awaited doctor's appointment arrived today. Cutting a long story short, I am to stop taking the dreadful strong painkillers that make me ill, stay on the anti inflamatory ones, and now have mild anti anxiety tablets (no surprise there then) and some sleeping tablets for short term use because he says a lot of the issue is down to the perpetual lack of sleep owing to the pain in my knee. MT said it was good of the doctor to prescribe knockout rape drugs for her use.......and for only the cost of the prescription. Was this supposed to help with my anxiety ? Let me meditate on that.
This was also exactly what MT was hoping for from the consultation, so I'm not surprised.
Once back home MT suggested a nice snuggle and relax in bed. Like the proverbial 'lamb to the slaughter' I got into bed, closely followed by wily MT. There was a snuggle, then a command to pleasure her.
Then I was instructed to find and put on the dreaded peach panties. I tried the old ' Oh I am not sure where they are' routine, but of course it was just going through the delaying tactic motions that I knew would be useless.
So clad in peach panties....sorry no pics hehe, I was told to get across MT's knee and then I was spanked. As I lay over her knee taking my spanking without too much fuss I just knew what would follow. Sure enough, after about ten minutes MT went and fitted the strap on belt and I was ordered onto my side. She would have preferred to have me up on my knees but the poor left knee just will not bend at present without intolerable pain.
My panties were pulled down onto my thighs and I felt the wave of humiliation. So many times in my past have I done this to girls and now I am the one on the receiving end, it really is a fucking liberty. With my panties down and my cheeks parted all I could do was wait for the inevitable painful penetration. MT was gentle but forceful and all I could do was try and relax and take it......just like a 'wife' as she again told me.
There were of course numerous taunts by MT, I shall not bore you with the details (you will have to use your imagination). And of course I yelled and kicked as per normal. I was then teased over onto my stomach still impaled by MT and then given a thorough rough arse raping. After several orgasms (MT's of course) she finally finished with me. I was left bruised and very sore.
After a short rest it was time to go and do the supermarket shop.
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Thursday, 17 November 2011
Tuesday, 18 January 2011
My owner, my bitch.
This is going to sound a little bit strange to some people thus I shall enjoy saying it even more, 'MT likes me to bite and even occasionally spank her' . Yes it is true, my darling sadistic uber dominant Owner allows her lucky slave to bite her all over her body and even on rare occasions deliver the odd sound spanking.
Unfortunately this revelation has absolutely nothing to do with MT having switched. It is quite simple really, when she is experiencing a lot of pain due to her rheumatoid arthritis (RA) there are times when she orders me to give her pain. Reluctantly I oblige (ok, so 'reluctantly' was a total load of bollocks). Saying this to an ex Dom with very sadistic tendencies without any limitations or restrictions would be totally stupid, as my owner is not stupid (unfortunately for me on this occasion) there are of course strict rules.
I am told what I can and cannot do and obviously have to stop when told to do so... I hate that fucking bit. It is a bit like showing a starving lion your whole body and then expecting it to just eat a toe and nothing else, it is pure torture, even when being bitten or receiving a spanking MT still is a frigging sadist.
MT's pain is sometimes very severe, so the theory she's trying out goes that if I give her pain the endorphins can help to override the RA pain and also 'bring her back to me' in her words. It makes her feel connected to me and more aware of my presence I think.
I have to admit, whilst I really hate seeing her in pain, the opportunity to spank that oh so cute sexy bottom is a treat amongst treats. Ah the good old days, the memories may be fading but a few good slaps on her arse and it all comes flooding back to me. No matter how long or how owned I feel, the dominant part of me will never die, which is good news, because I do like to give MT good service.
My only problem is restraint. I always throw myself fully into everything I do and this is pure torture. Once I am inflicting pain I get a real surge, the more it hurts the better and I never want to stop. I do however always worry that I might get too carried away because she is in pain from her RA and I would hate to really hurt her (ok, sort of).
It is a really special thing. It is service topping and I never forget, even in the ecstasy of giving pain, that I am her property. It's just her property sinking my teeth into her flesh or on those rare blissful moments giving her a very sound spanking and God, do I love it. She's experimented with using pain to effect a few times now and usually copes much better with extremely harsh pain than spanking etc. Spanking or what she calls 'girly pain' just pisses her off usually, but this time it's worked for her (and me).
The only down side to this is that sometimes, because I am very much a slave who responds to physically and psychologically feel like a slave at all times, I can miss the effects of the physical treatments that MT gives me. When she is unwell, her sadism although still present is far less active as she just can't move very much. Sometimes I know I am close to really needing to be physically kept in line but do not get it, I have to focus so much harder on meeting her needs without me flipping into fuck it all mode, which is very unpleasant, not at all acceptable and totally pisses off MT. I also regret it afterwards, and fortunately it is a much rarer occurrence lately, which is good.
At the moment I am enjoying the current phase of sinking my teeth into MT's body and slapping her bottom and thighs, but - purely because it's not there - I am starting to feel the need for a sound beating, humiliation and total degradation that my Owner normally supplies. MT, perhaps you could get well for a couple of hours then have a long relapse. Worth a try anyway ;)
Unfortunately this revelation has absolutely nothing to do with MT having switched. It is quite simple really, when she is experiencing a lot of pain due to her rheumatoid arthritis (RA) there are times when she orders me to give her pain. Reluctantly I oblige (ok, so 'reluctantly' was a total load of bollocks). Saying this to an ex Dom with very sadistic tendencies without any limitations or restrictions would be totally stupid, as my owner is not stupid (unfortunately for me on this occasion) there are of course strict rules.
I am told what I can and cannot do and obviously have to stop when told to do so... I hate that fucking bit. It is a bit like showing a starving lion your whole body and then expecting it to just eat a toe and nothing else, it is pure torture, even when being bitten or receiving a spanking MT still is a frigging sadist.
MT's pain is sometimes very severe, so the theory she's trying out goes that if I give her pain the endorphins can help to override the RA pain and also 'bring her back to me' in her words. It makes her feel connected to me and more aware of my presence I think.
I have to admit, whilst I really hate seeing her in pain, the opportunity to spank that oh so cute sexy bottom is a treat amongst treats. Ah the good old days, the memories may be fading but a few good slaps on her arse and it all comes flooding back to me. No matter how long or how owned I feel, the dominant part of me will never die, which is good news, because I do like to give MT good service.
My only problem is restraint. I always throw myself fully into everything I do and this is pure torture. Once I am inflicting pain I get a real surge, the more it hurts the better and I never want to stop. I do however always worry that I might get too carried away because she is in pain from her RA and I would hate to really hurt her (ok, sort of).
It is a really special thing. It is service topping and I never forget, even in the ecstasy of giving pain, that I am her property. It's just her property sinking my teeth into her flesh or on those rare blissful moments giving her a very sound spanking and God, do I love it. She's experimented with using pain to effect a few times now and usually copes much better with extremely harsh pain than spanking etc. Spanking or what she calls 'girly pain' just pisses her off usually, but this time it's worked for her (and me).
The only down side to this is that sometimes, because I am very much a slave who responds to physically and psychologically feel like a slave at all times, I can miss the effects of the physical treatments that MT gives me. When she is unwell, her sadism although still present is far less active as she just can't move very much. Sometimes I know I am close to really needing to be physically kept in line but do not get it, I have to focus so much harder on meeting her needs without me flipping into fuck it all mode, which is very unpleasant, not at all acceptable and totally pisses off MT. I also regret it afterwards, and fortunately it is a much rarer occurrence lately, which is good.
At the moment I am enjoying the current phase of sinking my teeth into MT's body and slapping her bottom and thighs, but - purely because it's not there - I am starting to feel the need for a sound beating, humiliation and total degradation that my Owner normally supplies. MT, perhaps you could get well for a couple of hours then have a long relapse. Worth a try anyway ;)
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