It hurt too much

Well MT decided we would go to the BDSM event yesterday, although she was obviously not really well enough. The weather was poor which meant we could not do anything outside although we did use the marquee as well as the indoor equipment.

Once in a while, I find I just can't take pain and yesterday was one of those days. MT strapped me to a bench and I requested a warm up...I did get a very short one, she prefers to beat me 'cold' as I mark easier.

Although she was not hitting me as hard as usual, I just could not stand it. It hurt so much, I just wanted to get up off the bench and escape somewhere. This has happened a few times before but yesterday was particularly bad. I made all sorts of noises and I think some pleas but no matter how MT altered the blows it still 'felt' far too much for me to bear. In the early stage I felt sorry for myself  but as the minutes passed this started to turn into annoyance and latterly into anger. I could feel the anger welling up inside me and I knew I had to contain it and be a good slave but I just hated it so much I just wanted it to stop.

I think it was a combination of things, for a start I was aching all over and in pain generally from a very physical week at work. I was also tired and we have not been doing much impact stuff recently, so I was not as accustomed to the pain as I usually am. Another factor which I also think is relevant is my loss of weight.

Having lost two and a half stone I have significantly less 'padding' on my body, particularly on the buttocks and thighs, MT's two favourite areas.A couple of blows on my thighs felt like they had hit bone (which of course they had not) but that was how it felt. Because the pain from each individual blow was causing me to inhale sharply I could not exhale properly in between blows, thus I was feeling exceptionally like I could not breath and felt as though I was suffocating.

Being ever vigilant , MT was instantly concerned by my reactions and asked numerous times if I was OK. I did my best to convince her I was OK but she was not fooled and decided to stop. Although I was exceptionally relieved by her decision I also felt sad that I had let her down and could not give her the pleasure she deserved.

Unfortunately, there was no blood play area like there usually is, so alternatives to impact play was limited.

We still had a good time, socialising, a couple of drinks, food, tea , coffee and of course cake. We also had a little bit of the sexy snuggling stuff on a very large mattress while all sorts of kink was going on around us.

I got a ticking off today because I escaped  ( I mean got up ) from bed this morning before MT was awake and missed the usual post bdsm buggering she usually gives me......I expect I will get it some time very soon.